What do you do with a Hiei?

Chapter 12

Botan opened her eyes to the bright light. She rolled over to look at the clock finding it kind of hurt. ‘Damn that man’ for some unknown reason Hiei had been some what ruff with her for the past two weeks. He had taken to biting her while they were having sex and some times he’d dig his nails into her skin just to hear her scream. She couldn’t understand why he had become so harsh with her, but she hated it almost as much as she hated him.

Claiming out of bed Botan looked over her shoulder to see her back. There were little cuts on her sides and a deep bite mark. ‘Why is he being so harsh? Before he wasn’t the kinds of lovers, but he didn’t cut me or bite me.’ She wondered as she opened her dresser looking for underpants and a bar. Finding a nice pink set she put it on tensing a little when the bite mark acted up.

She looked at herself in the mirror feeling quit inadequate. ‘Why did he pick me anyways? I am not strong, I am not sexy and I am not mean! So what was it and why is he being so mean to me?’ It was driving her crazy; she had once read that when fire demons pick a mate they become very protective of that person and would die of heart brake if there mate had even the tiniest of cuts. This wasn’t true for her fire-ly little moister he seemed to enjoy inflicting pain on her.

Trying to shove the thoughts out of her mind Botan found herself a nice yellow top and shorts to match. She busied herself getting ready for the day. Once she was just about out the door her phone rang. It never failed she thought as she picked it up. “Hello this is Botan, who am I speaking too?”

“I know your little secret.” Came an all too for-miler voice on the other end of the phone. Botan’s heart came to a stop when she heard the word secret. She only had one secret she was hiding for the team and the rest of the two worlds. But how could Shizuru know she was sleeping with Hiei?

“Secret I don’t have any secrets Shizuru.” Botan laughed naively trying to hide that fact she was terrified someone know she was Hiei’s little love toy.

“Oh come on Botan I’ve got it written down in my date book.” Shizuru said in that voice of hers that could bring a grown man to tears. Botan couldn’t understand what writing it in her date book would have to do with any thing. She stopped wondering when Shizuru want on. “In two days it’s your birthday, don’t try to lie to me.”

“My birthday” Botan turned to look at the calendar on the wall. She let out a load laugh she had plum forgotten all about her silly birthday. “That’s not a secret Shizuru I just forgot all about it.” The women on the other end of the phone scoffed a little.

“What’s got you so distracted you’d forget your own birthday….Or should I say who?” Botan didn’t like the way she said who it was as if she was teasing Botan about her real secret. Of chouse there was no way anyone know about it. With Hiei’s power of sight he wouldn’t even look in her direction if someone was watching. That was one thing she was thankful for.

“There is no who, unless work has taken on the forum of a person. Witch is possible with a few spells, but a walking stake of files are not really what you would call a who more like a what the fuck.” Both girls laughed at this. Feeling like she had the conversion under control Botan braved a question. “Why would you think there was a who?”

“I just had a feeling for about oh I don’t know six months now that there was a man in your life you didn’t want to share with the rest of us.” Botan was a little studded she know Shizuru had really good in-site, but this was just creepy. “Sometimes I get the feeling it’s one of the guys like Kurama or that little guy who hates everyone…His name alludes me at the moment, probably because I’ve never archly talked to the man, but it’s just a feeling.”

“His name is Hiei” Botan said to help the other girl out.

“Your secret lovers name is Hiei?” Shizuru asked she sound kind of serious, before Botan could say a word she heard another voice this one was in the back ground. It was Kuwabara’s voice ringing out.

“WHO”S SECRET LOVERS NAME IS HIEI?” Botan felt her heart drop she had to say something.

“I don’t have a lover” She yelled into the phone, but Shizuru being her oh so evil self didn’t listen.

“Botan” She said Botan could tell by the way she said it she was smiling. Unfortunately for Botan there was a chorus of voices and she could pick out ever single one.

“WHAT NO WAY” Kuwabara yelled

“HIEI AND BOTAN I DON”T BELIEVE IT” Yusuke yelled

“Is this some kind of joke?” Kurama asked

“Isn’t Hiei that mean little guy with the sword?” Keiko asked.

“SHIZURU TELL THEM YOU’RE JOKING NOW!!!!!” Botan screamed into the phone “My gods women I was just telling you the name of the man you couldn’t recalls name!” The last thing she need in her life was the team even thinking for a moment she was with Hiei. She heard Shizuru make a little sound that said not yet in volumes. All poor Botan could do was listen on the other end of the phone.

“Yeah see Botan said she had forgotten her birthday and I asked her what or WHO had distracted her and she said her secret lover. Then I said I had a feeling she had a secret lover for about sixes months and it was one of you guys and She said his name was Hiei.” Shizuru said it as if it was the truest of things.

“I DID NOT SAY THAT!!! I DID NOT!!!!!” She screamed hopping someone would hear her. There was no such luck as she hared the team saying Ah Hun. She just wanted to die even if Shizuru was just kidding the true of the matter was Hiei was her secret lover and he was mean! So mean if they teased him about it he’d become even more ruff in bed. “Shizuru please tell them you’re joking now. If Hiei even thinks I like him he’ll kill me I just know it.” She pleaded with the other women.

“I never would have thought Hiei had a thing for Botan.” Kurama said there was a long pass “Then again Hiei is an awfully hard man to read.” Botan could just see everyone nodding there heads in argument to this. She herself would have nodded if she wasn’t so upset at the time. Botan felt her heart skip a beat as it really finely dawned on her.

“He picked me out of all the women out there he picked me” Her voice was a little shakily because the fact was it scared the hell out of her. Botan’s eyes widen as she realized what she had done. She hadn’t meant to say it out load, but as soon as it crossed her lips it was to late Shizuru had hared it. “Please tell me you didn’t hear that.”

“I did” Her voice was low almost a whisper.

“Shizuru I….Please tell the others it’s not true. Hiei….I … I am ashamed of it.” Botan lowered her head looking down at the floor. “I promise I’ll tell you about it, but I just can’t stand the thought of anyone else knowing…” She began to cry she hated the thought just that much.

Shizuru breast out laughing as if she hadn’t hard a word of what Botan said. “I was just kidding you guys. There is no way Botan would date Hiei.” Through her tears Botan could hear everyone else laughing. As if it was the funniest joke in the world.

“You really had us going that time Shizuru.” Kurama said through his laughter. The others said more or less the same thing. Botan just held the phone to her ear as tears ran down her face. Someone other then Hiei know her shameful secret. She wasn’t sure she could face the other women now. It was just too shameful to even share with her closed friend.

“Give me half an hour and I’ll be there.” Shizuru whispered into the phone before it went dead. Botan put the phone down as if it were her life line. Slowly she walked to the front door and looked out. She half expected to see her hateful lover standing there glaring at her. She looked over the roof tops to see if he was coming. She just had this feeling he was close by and pissed off.

Closing the door she went to the kitchen snick to wash her face. As she washed a voice filled her head. “Why did you do that woman?” Of choose no day was complete without Hiei tormenting her.

‘I didn’t mean to it just happened’ She said hoping he would drop it and go away.

‘What are you going to tell that woman about us?’ His voice sounded almost sinister. Botan crossed her arms and tried her best to sound unaffected by it. She didn’t quit make it, but almost.

“What I tell her is none of your concern Hiei. This is girl talk not to be hared by the ears or in your chase eyes of men! Now don’t you dare listen in or…OR I won’t be so willing the next time you want to mate! YOU HEAR ME!” She yelled at him.

‘Alright women no need to yell besides I am not the one who said it had to be a secret you are.’ There was a long odd sort of pass ‘I have to leave town for a few days. I’ll be back in time for your birthday… I know humans and yourself have some kind of need to celebrate that day.’ He sounded almost sad about leaving or maybe it was the celebrating she couldn’t tell.

“Where are you going?” She asked feeling as if she had the right to know after all she did sleep with the man.

‘Just south of here to Odapeg. I am leaving so I won’t be seeing you tonight or tomorrow night.” He had told her without hesitation and she was utterly studied.

“Why are you going there?” She couldn’t stop herself it was like a sickness or something. At first there was no reply then she hared him sigh.

‘Meat me in your room I’ll tell you then…. I am just a block away.” Botan didn’t question him any farther. She just went up to her room as she opened the door. Hiei popped in the window. He shut it behind him before looking at her. “Sit down.”

She sat down on the bed awaiting his information. “There have been a lot of demons coming out of Odapeg saying the same thing. That there is an illegal death match being held in an underground tunnel.”

“And your going to fine it and what?” Botan asked looking rather upset. Hiei wasn’t the law binding type and that bothered her. One thing she had always imaged her lovers to be was law binding.

“I am going to join in and see what it is all about. Once I know then I’ll decide what to do.” Hiei said walking across the room to come and stand in fort of her.

“Why don’t you tell Koenma and let the law take care of it?” She said meeting his deep glaze. “I mean you’re already in a lot of trouble with the law as it is.” A small smirk slipped over his lips.

“Worried about me women?” His hand reached up and slipped in to her hair. If he was any other man she would have thought he was flirting with her.

“Why can’t you just obey the law just ounces?” He leaned in to let his noise ran over her check and neck. It sent shivers up her spine, he was being so gently.

“That’s just not who I am women.” He nibbled on her neck forcing her to move back on the bed with his body. She lied back as easily as butter goes on hot bread. Hiei moved on top of her moving his hands under her shirt. He stopped when his hands run over the bite mark he had left on her. He sat up and made a funny face. Not funny ha-ha, but funny strange.

Botan moved up onto her elbows getting a better look at his face. He seemed to be angry or maybe sad she couldn’t tell with him it was just impossible. “I have to go now women” He moved in slowly his lips only inches form hers and she couldn’t believe it when she felt the hope inside her that he’d kiss her. They had never really kissed before. There had just been that weird thing with the chicken and that one kiss on her cheek.

His surprisingly soft lips pressed gently ageist hers. She wasn’t sure if he had known she wanted him to kiss her or if he had wanted to do it himself. All she knew as she closed her eyes was it was one of the nicest moment she had had with the man. She stilled hated him and didn’t want to be his mate, but she was also still a women and when a hotly like Hiei kissed you, you were going to enjoy it no matter what. He moved away heading for the window as always.

“Just be careful, I don’t need to hear you’ve been arrested again.” He stopped to smirk at her. She wished she had his gift to look into other peoples minds, just so she could see just why he smirked at her that way.

“See you in two days woman… your friend is at the door.” With that he was out the window. A loud knock came form down stairs. Shizuru had come to talk as soon as she could. Botan only hoped she wouldn’t know she had just been kissing the man she was ashamed to be seeing. Botan opened the fort door to see the worried look on her friends face.

“Come in Shizuru” Botan said stepping aside to let the other women in. Botan looked to see if she could see Hiei’s retreating forum as she closed the door she could not. The two women moved to the kitchen to have there little talk. Shizuru was the first one to speak.

“What exactly is going on Botan? I mean I know you’re seeing that man, but why is it a big secret? Why are you ashamed of it? Why do you keep seeing him if you don’t like him? And most of all why was he just here? I mean if this guy upsets you to the point you start crying …. Is he raping you?” Shizuru asked taking a set at the kitchen table.

“No….it’s not like that.” Botan said softly there was a time she had felt like it was rap, but she known it wasn’t. Hiei had never once held her down or tied her up. He had of chouse said he would, but Botan didn’t think he would because even the night he had threatened her he didn’t hold her down. When she screamed ‘no’ he had backed off. Sure she had pushed him away first, but Hiei was stronger then her by far. He could have jumped right back on her to take what he wanted, but he hadn’t.

“Then what is it like if its not rap? Because I really don’t understand Botan.” Shizuru voice was farm as she moved back in her chair to stare at the blue haired girl. Botan took a set closing her eyes to try and clear her mind. Botan looked at the floor after awhile unsure of what to say, she didn’t have an answer for Shizuru, she didn’t even have one for herself. “Ok then how did this all start?” Shizuru asked softly

“Well about six months ago He got sick…” Botan whispered

“I do recall Kuwabara saying something about that. Didn’t the men get drugged up and go crazy?” Shizuru asked punitively as she ran a hand throw her hair.

“What happen was he got sick darning his mating season….Unlike human’s demons have a season in witch they must find a mate. Kind of like an animal if they don’t find one they can’t mate for that year. Though some of them still do, but there not mating to make babies…” Botan was cut off

“It’s just for the fun of it. I get it, so it was his mating season and he was sick then what?” Shizuru asked impatiently.

“He couldn’t go out and find a mate because he was sick. I am guessing that is why he choose me. He even marked me as his mate.” Botan should Shizuru Hiei clam on her.

“Couldn’t you just say no or something?” Shizuru asked running a hand over the bite mark.

“No it’s not like being asked on a date. A female can’t turn down a male once she has been marked as his. She can ask him to win her over, but during that time the male can become very violent. If he even thinks another male is in his way of winning the female over, he might kill that other male to insure his winning.” Botan stopped a moment pressing a thought. “I had done that to him and he went crazy. He attacked Kurama because he need a plant that would controlled his temper to keep him for setting the town on fire. Just so he could go see who my date was that night. He didn’t care that he could have set the whole town on fire if the plant didn’t work or he could kill himself. He had become told-ly reckless in his state of mind. For what Aya told me he was on my roof top so drugged up he was trying to swim a crossed it. I know after that I couldn’t go on letting him try and win me over. Who know what else he could have done…Maybe even kill the team in his insanity to win me over.”

“I knew he wanted the plant to control his temper, but I didn’t know it was so he could come spy on you… Alright so he marked you as his because you were the only female he could get too. You challenge his claim; he went crazy while trying to insure his claim on you and then what? You said you know you couldn’t keep letting him try to win you over for the safely of every male you came in contacted with.” She smiled at this for some reason.

“I made a deal with him” Botan whispered thinking back on that night. She had been scared out of her mind trying to decide the best chose of action and all he could do was stare at her with those deep blood red eyes of his.

“What kind of deal are we talking about?” Shizuru asked the smile slipping away to be replaced with a look of worry.

“I … he….” Botan snuck lower in her chair. She felt Shizuru’s hand on her back.

“It’s ok take your time.” Shizuru voice was softer as she lean forward to rub Botan’s back. Botan felt hot tears fill up in her eyes as she sat there.

“When he wants to mate….He comes here to my bedroom and what’s for me.” Her voice quivered as she went on. “I get 45 minutes alone in the bathroom before I have to join him….” She sucked in some air trying to claim herself.

“Why 45 minutes?” Shizuru asked moving her chair closer so she could hug Botan.

“It’s my time to prepare myself for him mentally and fiscally. I take the pill and and….”It was becoming harder to speck. “Touch myself…you know down there.” She whispered not really wanting Shizuru to hear her say it.

“Ok… once you’ve prepared yourself then what do you do?” Her friend’s voice was claim but filled with worry.

“I join him… We don’t do foreplay he just …you know while I layer there. I don’t even touch him, let alone look at him…Once it’s over he leaves, he never says anything or touches me after word…witch is part of the deal… And lately he’s been biting and screeching me while were doing…it.” Botan had to stop for a moment to get a hold of herself. “Shizuru am scared of him… I never know what to expect… He doesn’t talk to me and it’s not like he’s ever come over to just hold me. He’s so cold and mean I… I just hate it because he won’t open up to me. It’s like having my own personal moister slip into bed with me.” The tears over welled her as she cried. Her friend held her close rubbing her back softly.

“Botan do you want him to open up to you, too hold you in his arms and talk to you? Do you think if he did that for you it would make it better?” Shizuru asked softly

“Yes” Botan cried into Shizuru’s shoulder “I feel so used so dirty… I hate him!” Shizuru rocked her back and forth.

“Why don’t you tell him? Tell him you want him to stay then night and hold you. Asked him what he did that day. Maybe if you talk to him he’ll talk back.” It seemed logical to Shizuru. Botan sniffled as she sat up whipping the tears form her eyes.

“Do…Do you think he would?” She asked shaking all over.

“Couldn’t hurt to try…Was he here just now to…” Shizuru asked trying to get an understanding of what told state of mind Botan was in.

“No…. It was strange this visited.” Botan said slowly getting a hold of herself.

“Whys that?” Shizuru asked taking a napkin to whip off her shirt.

“He came to tell me he was leaving town for a few days, but he’d be back for my birthday… He even kissed me for the first time.” Botan said letting the memory of his lips dance through her mind.

“Well that’s a good sigh maybe he wants to be a little more open with you. After all he could of left without telling you and he sure as heck could of not kissed you.” That was true Botan though getting up form her chair.

“I am still scared of him…I am scared of the thought of asking him to be more open with me… Hiei’s not really the open, friendly or loving type. He’s more of the closed off, angry murdering type.” Shizuru got to her feet.

“You’ve got to give the man a chance Botan; He may just not know how to show you he cares. Men are like that a lot of the time and if what Yusuka said about him being a longer is true. He’s more likely not even sure what he feels let alone how to expresses those feelings. Plus up to now you had a deal with him to take it and go. He probably thinks you don’t care if he cares. You just want him to go away or something.” Shizuru was right about that, she was right about all of it.

“I don’t want to fall in love with him or anything like that. I just want to feel less used by him.” Botan said looking up to her room.

“Then that’s what you tell the man.” For the first time scenes she had agreed to being his secret mate Botan felt like she had the right to ask him for more then he was willing to give her.

“I’ve got two days till my birthday…. HAY do I get a party?” She asked feeling much better about her lover then she had ever felt before.

“Of chouse you get a party, I got it all planed and who knows maybe your little lover with bring you a gift when he gets back.” Shizuru joked and Botan laughed

“Yeah and then we’ll hold hands down the street. Or no we’ll make out in fort of people like we alchemy care for one another and it’s not just because we were both backed into a corner and beaten with a stick!” It felt good to make fun of there relationship like this and with a friend no less. She and Shizuru spent hours talking about how she could ask Hiei to be more kind to her. It was around 4:30 when they decided to go out for dinner and plan a birthday party.

“Do you think he will come to the party?” Botan asked as they walked down the street

“I don’t know maybe... What does her eat?” Shizuru asked waving down a taxi.

“I don’t really know. I know he likes ice cream and he may or may not like chicken. I gave it to him once and well let’s just say I ate more then he did and so did the floor.”

“Well when you see him next time, ask the man ‘what do you eat’?”