A Tortured Spirit Reborn

-1Shiyva: Hello again and welcome to Chapter 4! Hope you are enjoying it so far!! Now its Kurumi’s turn to unveil her story…

Shout Outs: Thanks to Black Wolf Jaganshi Lover for the review!

Chapter 4

My Side of the Story…

“ Tell me…” his free hand reached itself from my hair to my shoulder where it was placed gently.

“ Ok…” I smiled up at him, although being very disheartened at how my life had turned out in the end, maybe it would change after meeting the Spirit Detectives? Who knows?

Striding back over to my dresser where I had first intended to go before this whole scenario unfolded, I grabbed my little black brush and started combing through my long, tangled hair as I sat down on my bed preparing myself for the explanation I was about to give. It felt really bad having to dig up all those bottled up feelings that I wanted to lock up and banish away forever…but Hiei wanted to know…and after forgetting who he was after all this time, I owe him that much, I will do this for him.

“ Ok how do I start this…” I bit my lower lip, searching for the right words to say as all of the horrid memories came flooding back into my mind, “ After you saved me that day…and left, I came to the conclusion I was alone in life…so…I lived in the shadows of the Makai for many years, training myself to fight, training myself to deal with certain emotions, until one day I decided to go back to Koorime Island and see my mother…when I got there, however, they shunned me, ridiculing me for what I was, and to tell you the truth I really didn’t know what I was,” I rose my gaze to meet his, “ I thought all along that I was indeed one of them, but that is the confusing bit, my mother, Rii, always kept me hidden from the other villagers in our house…she said I was different from them, but wouldn’t tell me how and to just stay hidden.”

“ Rii?” Hiei let out a surprised gasp through clenched teeth.

“ Yes, is there something wrong? Do you know my mother…?” I stood up slowly, taking a few steps toward him.

“ N-no, don’t worry about it, the name just sounded familiar is all…” he glanced to the floor, seemingly deep in thought.

“ Anyway…for the first hundred years of my life, no one even knew I existed, except for Hina and her daughter Yukina, Hina always seemed depressed and upset every time I saw her, and my mother was always crying at night before she went to bed…like something horrible was bugging her all the time…I never found out what made her and Hina so upset, Yukina told me once when we were playing with my toys that she had a long lost brother whom she still searches for…I would help her if I could but I do not know what he looks like,” tears found their way to the corners of my eyes again, “ How horrible it must be to have a brother whom you never met and not knowing whether he is still alive or not…that must hurt more then anything…”

“ Yes…it does sound maddening…” Hiei stood, apparently frozen in his gaze which was fixed on my small frame.

“ Hiei are you alright…?” I took a few more steps forward, him backing away towards the window as I came closer, “ Hiei…?” my eyes teared up, “ Is there something your not telling me that you want to talk about?” I clutched my hands at my chest.

“ No…it is none of your concern…” he sat down once again on the windowsill, glancing out into the midnight scenery.

“ Well…when I returned to the island after so many years, I found out that my mother was dead, that she had commited suicide over her loss of losing me to those cruel women…although I was allowed to stay for a bit, being I was defenseless and all…I had learned of Yukina’s departure to search for her brother a bit before I had returned, and her mother had commited suicide but a few months before mine had…that my mother was the one who had “Disposed” of Yukina’s sibling when he was born, I learned that boys were not to be a part of our society and that only women dwelled on Koorime Island…I didn’t like that at all, plus the guilt of having my mother be the one who disposed of that poor boy when he was only an infant crushed me inside…poor Yukina…” clacking noises were heard as Hiraseki stones clanked on the floor, flowing from my cheeks like a river after a rainstorm.

“ Its not your fault…what happened has happened…its over now…” Hiei stared into my eyes, a cold look of terror lit up his crimson hues, scaring me a bit.

“ It is my fault though…my mother betrayed them also and ran off just like Hina did and mated with a fire yokai…thus having me…a half breed…Yukina told me that her brother is of the same fate as I, but he was a male and I am not…I possess the blood of a fire yokai more so then a Koorime, I carry both traits just as he does, only I am female…it was all so confusing…then I was sold incoherently to those bastards so that they wouldn’t destroy the Koorime people…so they sent me as a peace gift…horrid right? I didn’t know that at first…they told me it was only for a bit so that these men could get their town on its feet and that they needed my female assistance…so I went…I was young and I didn’t know I would be treated so cruelly and abused so sexually that it pains me inside to think about all the torture I went through…I couldn’t escape either…there were so many guards and I was so lacking in my training that it was hard to escape so I trained at night when no one was awake…trying my hardest to get myself strong enough to fight to leave…betrayed by my own people…called the Forbidden Child…it hurts so much that I have practically made a barrier in my mind, devoiding myself of all emotion,” my crying had stopped and a flat look of cruelty and anger flooded my features, “ so that’s how it all happened…I was sexually abused and tortured…” I turned to Hiei, looking for an answer in his ever so distant eyes of his, that seemed to never show the least bit of emotion.

All of a sudden, Hiei was standing in front of my small, shaking frame, looking down into my eyes…I begged for his touch wanting to feel loved for once in my life, even treated fairly if possible. I wanted to be accepted into peoples lives without feeling neglected. I started to shudder as two powerful hands grasped my upper arms forcefully…I could feel his tightened grip on my arms, squeezing my soft skin. Maybe this was a bad time to blush a bright freaking red!? My face was as I already said…a bright red hue, glancing up into his eyes I soon found myself lost in an endless abyss of crimson seas.

“ Hiei…? Is everything ok…?” my eyes shot back and forth at his features, trying to grab a slight hint of emotion.

“ Kurumi…” was all he said before pressing me tightly against him, I could feel his hot breath emanating upon my bare neck as all I was wearing was a spagetti strap short nightgown.

I melted into his embrace like slowly wading into a pond on a hot Makai day. Maybe I could find peace here with him? Who knows? I want to know more about Hiei, we got off to a bad start all those years ago…I told him my story…now I have to find a way for him to tell me his. I lifted my arms slowly around his waist, being as his hands gripped tightly at my upper arms still, my head resting against his chest, I could feel his pounding heartbeat like he was nervous or excited…I couldn’t tell. Sorry I am bad at that stuff!! Anyway…Hiei then let go of me, walking towards the windowsill once again…lifting one foot onto the wooden platform, glancing back at my shaking form once more.

“ Hiei…” I stepped forward a bit, one hand slightly outstretched, a saddened frown upon my feminine features.

“ Goodnight…woman…see you tomorrow…” a slight smile mocked my saddened frown as he lept from my window into the cold midnight weather.

“ Oh…well…” I strode back over to my bed, jumping under the warm comforter and drifting back off to sleep, dreaming of my crush throughout the night.

Shiyva: Hope you all enjoyed the 4th chapter!! I have been having a bit of writers block but I am trying to work through it all lol see you next chapter!!