Why didn't I notice?

By: xkuramaxhieix

folder Yuyu Hakusho › Yaoi - Male/Male › Hiei/Kurama

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Category: Yuyu Hakusho › Yaoi - Male/Male › Hiei/Kurama

Rating: Adult

Chapters: 2

Views: 1,757

Reviews: 3

Recommended: 0

Currently Reading: 0

Disclaimer: I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho, or any other copyrighted items mentioned. Nor do I profit from it.

Not your fault.

Author's note

Hey~! So I decided to add another chapter from Hiei's POV because, well, I'm bored and the muse is flowing out of my fingertips for this one.

Story, Begin!

What could you have done Kurama?

I've lived my life,

As much as a forbidden child could.

I was tired Kurama,

So, so, tired.

I've been fighting all my life, blade in hand.

Fighting to protect myself.

Fighting to stay alive.

Fighting for what I believe in.

Fighting to protect the ones I love,

But this warrior is tired.

I knew that if I did this,

I could count on you to take care of Yukina.

I know you would take care of her for me.

You know me too well Kurama.

I still did it Kurama,

I took my own life.

Not knowing that it would hurt you too.

Gods, I miss you.

I sit here, watching,

Sometimes wishing, that I hadn't done what I'd done.

But it's too late now.

I've done the unthinkable,

And,

I can never come back.

I can never tell you how sorry I am.

I keep hearing you.

Sitting at my grave,

Weeping,

Still mourning,

Two years later.

I hear your sobs Kurama,

I hear you talking,

Telling me,

How much you miss me,

How you wish you'd told me you'd loved me,

Love?

I don't know love,

But,

If it's for you,

I'd try to love you back.

To know what I know now,

That someone loves me,

Someone wants me,

I would never had killed myself

I, don't know if this ache is heartburn,

But, whenever I think of you,

My hearts beats a little faster,

My mouth dries up

Then I see you in front of my grave

And sadness takes over.

I don't deserve your love.

I don't deserve your tears.

You're a strong, beautiful creature,

And for someone so strong,

To cry over someone like me,

a person nobody wants,

But everyone fears,

Scares me.

I'm sorry Kurama.

It's not your fault.

I made a choice.

It's my time to go now Kurama,

Go on to heaven,

Or hell,

Whichever I deserve.

Goodbye, Kurama

I get up to leave,

But somehow,

You sense me.

You call out to me and beg,

in such a sad voice,

"Don't leave Hiei!
Just stay a little bit longer,
keep me company before you go."

I stay of course.

I've been in limbo a longtime

I can stay a bit longer.

For you.

I stay with Kurama until the sun sets

He doesn't say a word,

But he's stopped crying.

I'm glad to know that I'm leaving him when he's finally stopped crying.

It lessens the guilt of my death,

As I get up from my seat to leave,

Arms wrap around me.

I freeze.

Looking at my captor,

I'm met with emerald green eyes,

My breath catches in my throat.

He can touch and see me?

How?

My eyes flicker to where he's been sitting.

His body is there,

Slumped over as if he's asleep.

I look at him,

Worried.

He shakes his head

"I'm not dead, Hiei.
I'm just taking a break from my body.

I'm relieved,

But,

Before I can say anything,

He's kissing me,

Touching me,

Caressing me,

Loving me,

Doing things to me I'd never thought of

Oh gods Kurama,

I wish I had lived to experience this

Because, after this,

I have to go.

And I think you know

Because,

The last time,

You were so furious in pleasing me,

Trying to make it last.

When we're done,

I return your exhausted spirit to your body

I bury my face in your warm,

alive, neck

and inhale deeply

You wake up and wave goodbye to my grave

Going home,

Pretending everything's alright.

I follow you,

Wanting to make sure you're all right,

I've realized my mistakes,
So forgive me.

For you Kurama,

I'll stay a little bit longer.

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