The Walls That Lie Between Us
The Walls That Lie Between Us
I blame this on the fact that
I have a super sweet Hiei wallpaper that I found on anime revolution. It's such
a good picture of him. I also blame this on the fact that I have a gay boy
fixation and I dare anyone to tell me that Hiei and Kurama are NOT a couple.
Heehee, this is a one shot and I'm not really sure what else to say about it.
Just read.
Disclaimer: I don't own Yu Yu
Hakusho.
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Warnings: Yaoi. (That's boy
on boy sex people so if you can't handle boy on boy anything, you probably
won't be able to handle sex and so I warned you.) Cussing. Yeah.
The Walls That Lie Between Us
The moonlight peaked in among the curtains, playing
across his face. His eyes roamed from the white blankets that covered his lover
all the way up to the red hair that was spread out against the pillow. His eyes
were closed and he bhed hed evenly, showing signs that he was asleep now.
Hiei studied him carefully in the darkness, with the
little light from the moon to show his features. He didn't want to think in the
cliched manner of why he was so lucky to be with Kurama. No, luck had nothing
to do with him and Kurama. They wanted to be like this, to be in this sort of
life and so this is where they were. How could he think of it? Hiei propped his
chin in his hands.
At first, it wasn't supposed to be a relationship. It
wasn't supposed to be an emotional thing at all. It had been growing between
them for some time before Hiei began to truly recognize what he was feeling.
Once he did realize it, how could he have ever said anything?
It was a beautiful sort of lust, not that anything
associated with Kurama had ever been ugly. Kurama with his green eyes with long
dark lashes and his red hair that was always just a little wild. A vibrance
that made his appearance overall even more brilliant.
That's probably why Hiei found himself wanting him more
and more.
He would lie awake most nights, thinking about that long
red hair and how he would like to tangle his fingers in it and how he would
like to make Kurama pant and moan. And he would speightights like that,
imagining such an encounter.
Everyone always said he had a short fuse but it was
getting to the point where he would snap at everyone and everything just
because they called attention to themselves.
Then he'd find somewhere by himself and try to resolve it
himself. It wasn't as good just thinking about it or picturing that soft skin
and what it could feel like. And so he was spending more and more time trying
to solve the problem on his own. And naturally, others around him began to grow
curious but no one dared ask. Hiei would likely kill somebody for questioning
him. But one soul was still curious to wear the wild-haired demon went.
Kurama followed him.
would dare. And he began to masturbate, deep in the woods, far from prying
eyes. Then he heard something. It was a gasp.
Hiei froze up
immediately. Hies des darted to where the noise had come from. A twig snapped
and he knew someone was there. Someone who had seen him and now didn't know
what to do, probably hadn't been expecting what they saw.
he covered himself and ran towards the person who was trying to make an escape.
He would catch them and then he'd make sure they were never able to speak as to
repeat it to anyone.
pursuit didn't last long, Hiei prided himself in speed. He caught the hand of
the person as they ran and tackled them to the ground, growling like a beast.
hand rose in the air, about to strike when the pale moonlight revealed green
eyes, very untamed green . It. It was Kurama.
suddenly killing him didn't seem to be an option. Hiei growled in frustration,
what the hell was he supposed to do now? Kurama's eyes looked...almost
vulnerable. His lips slightly parted and Hiei remembered right then that he
hadn't finished. He hadn't gotten near finishing and this was by far the worst
thing that could happen.
wasn't Kurama saying anything? Hiei's hand dropped.
Hiei trailed off, his tone very dangerous. "So, you decided to come spy on
me." Kurama was still just staring up at him. Hiei could see through his
partially parted lips, the red tongue behind the white teeth and he had a few thoughts
of what the tongue was capable of. No, he couldn't think about that, and why
hadn't Kurama said anything?
you happy? That's right, you can tell all of them that you saw me." Hiei's
eyes narrowed even more. Why Kurama of all people?
who?" Kurama's mouth closed and his eyebrows raised. His face was
decidedly calm. "I dt tht think many people would be interested in
something we all&quo"
felt a surge of anger and punched the ground right next to Kurama's head. He
didn't know why he felt so furious at what Kurama had just said. It meant that
Kurama wasn't going to say anything but Hiei wasn't sure what course of action
Kurama was really going to take.
you going to get off me?" Kurama asked and Hiei realized he was still
ontop of the red-haired demon. His body was right next to his and Hiei felt
himself harden even more with the realization of this closeness.
wid widened. He knew. Hiei knew he had to know. The body beneath him seemed to
seize with shock. Hiei felt an irrestible urge and pressed his lips hungrily
against Kurama's soft pliable ones.
kissed him almost ferociously. He was pressing so hard, he knew he was bruising
the other's lips and forcing his tongue into Kurama's mouth, grabbing the sides
of Kurama's face as though trying to force him further into it. And then he
yanked Kurama away from him and stood up quickly.
Kurama didn't understand this now. He was looking up at him from the ground,
confused by Hiei's actions. Hiei sneered slightly.
come near me again."
wasn't around, then Hiei wouldn't have to deal with all of that. He went off by
himself, breaking off contact with everything else. The whole thing felt
stupid, almost like a mistake. He lived in a cave all by himself, like some sexually
frustrated hermit, trying to resist the urge to relieve himself of his load
every time he thought back to that kiss.
It was like raping Kurama's mouth. It was delicious, it
was so perfect the way that he had forced himself on the red-haired man. And
the red-haired man was so surprised he couldn't do anything. And Hiei liked
that.
Of course, Kurama hadn't stayed away. Not at all. Kurama
spent a long time searching for Hiei because he felt some pull towards him. It
was what pulled him towards him so much that the red-haired demon had gone to
spy on him. It was an attraction.
But one day, Kurama found that cave. Hiei wasn't there,
he had gone out to collect firewood. Kurama knew it was the right place, so,
Kurama waited in a tree, just waiting for Hiei to come out.
Hiei began building his fire and watched the flames leap
about the burning logs. They made the shadows dance when they did that. And
sometimes it played tricks on him.
It was the shadow
of a person. A young man maybe. Hiei shook his head, no more of that nonsense.
It was just a trick of the...
turned his head when the shadow didn't waver very much. Kurama was standing
there, a rather determined look on his face.
this is where you've been hiding?" Kurama asked, Hiei didn't know if he
was accusing him or not. Hiei glared at him.
"What
the hell are you doing here?" Hiei questioned him as his fists tightened.
stopped. Why was he here? He knew he was attracted to Hiei by why had he chased
him this far? And Hiei smirked at him, a slow deliberate sort of smirk that
showed all the arrogance he possessed.
see," Hiei began. "You thought me kissing you meant something, didn't
you?" Kurama blinked but didn't say anyg. &g. "Worse then a
woman." Hiei got up and walked past him, stopping on foo foot away.
"I already told you not to come near me, do it again, and I'll kill you
Kurama."
kill me?" Kurama sounded amused. "I think yve mve misunderstood me,
Hiei. I have not been pining over you by any means. I came to find you because
your disappearance has raised a lot of questions. There's a reward."
thinking of yourself." Hiei practically hissed the accusation.
like you." Kurama retorted. "Maybe I'll be nice and sell you to some
lord who would love to use you as a toy, that's something you'd
enjoy."
half as much as you would." Hiei turned around and his eyes met the
glittering, merciless eyes of Kurama. But there was something else, so small
glimmer of amusement, not the cruel amusement that was their voices but almost
as if Kurama was enjoying this banter. "Why are you here?"
Kurama said slowly. "Perhaps you've been the one pining." Hiei's jaw
clenched. "Is that it? I guess doing it by yourself isn't very much fun.
Of course you could never find anyone that would want to do anything with you,
so you force yourself on the first-"
the hell up!" Hiei punched but Kurama caught his fist. Hiei knew he hadn't
been trying very hard but was still surprised. Kurama's fingers slid over his
wrist and then Kurama moved forward, his face so close to Hiei's neck that he
could feel Kurama's warm breath on it.
raised his head very slowly, his eyes lifting towards Hiei's face, his lashes
making it all that more dramatic. The red-haired man smiled a little right
then. "You don't think first, then act. You act. Just like that night. And
you leave yourself wide open, just like tonight."
kiss had more expertise and was much more refined. Hiei was taken aback and so
didn't fully comprehend what Kurama was doing until Kurama pulled away. Hiei
licked his lips almost subconsciously.
instant. Hiei tried stubbornly not to do anything, could almost see the
enticing little smile that Kurama was wearing, trying to seduce him into going
after him. He wanted Hiei to follow him into some sort of trap. No, Hiei
wouldn't be outsmarted, whatever he wanted to do to the demon.
After two days, Hiei was so fed up with it, that he set
out to find Kurama.
The room was large,
Hiei could tell through the glass balcony doors. Kurama was one for luxury.
Hiei opened the doors very quietly, sneaking in and closing them again. Hiei
tiptoed over to the bed where Kurama was lying.
was definitely asleep. Lying there, his red hair rumpled from movement in his
sleep, wearing a light yukata, stretched out over the bed.
up sleeping beauty." Hiei kicked the bed with his foot, not enough to
overturn it, just enough to rustle Kurama.
Kurama sat up and then stopped when he saw Hiei. "What is it that you
want?"
know damn well what I want." Hiei kissed him so suddenly and with such
force that Kurama's head hit the headboard. Hiei was no longer standing either.
He was right there, on top of Kurama.
struggled briefly but seemed to forgotten what kind of position he was in,
letting Hiei ravage his mouth before Hiei pulled back a little. He was untying
his white headband and Hiei grabbed Kurama's hands, pinning them, before using
the white hand to tie Kurama to the bed, straddling Kurama's midsection the
whole time.
that that was done, Hiei grabbed hold of Kurama's chin and pushed it upwards so
that his neck lay completely unprotected. Hiei's lips slid down the smooth
column before he nipped at it, his other hand working the tie of Kurama's thin
robe. Kurama gasped with a sort of excited shudder.
He
was enjoying it. He was enjoying it as much as Hiei was. He wanted Hiei to do
this to him.
own clothing soon became discarded after the tie had been loosened and the
yukata fell open slightly. Hiei's mouth was kissing and biting his neck and
then his breast bone, circling Kurama's nipples with his tongue before moving
on.
hands moving over Kurama's skin, touching him just like he imagined. Kurama
struggled against his bonds, wanting to touch Hiei as well but he couldn't. His
body twisted and moved everytime Kurama's fingers slid to a new part. Lips
brushing against him.
Hiei couldn't take it anymore and flipped Kurama over. The bonds tightened a
little more but Kurama didn't notice. Hiei slipped a couple of fingers into
Kurama, working the red-haired man who knew that while it felt good to him,
Hiei was soon going to replace his fingers with something else.
slid into Kurama and Kurama's back arched and Hiei grabbed ahold of his hips to
keep him moving back and forth smoothly. They were both coated in sweat by now.
Kurama moaned and Hiei answered with more powerful thrusts. Kurama's moans sent
him over the edge and he felt it all flowing out of him.
practically collapsed next to Kurama, who was still tied to the bed. The whole
thing had been a bit exhausting and he felt like he had been saving up just for
that perfect series of moments.
can't stop now, I'm not done." Kurama's voice roused him to reality. Hiei
felt oddly indifferent right then. Kurama had put him through the loop and now
he was expecting some sort of payment? Well, let's see how Kurama liked it.
got work to do." Hiei dressed and left, leaving Kurama rather stunned,
tied to his bed.
even shittier then he had before hand. See, before, he could only imagine what
it was like. Now he knew. He knew exactly what it felt like to be with Kurama.
And he wanted more.
He wanted Kurama in more ways then he could count at the
moment. And the memory of Kurama's flushed face, sweat beading on his forehead
while he moaned was just more then Hiei could stand. Not that he would admit
it. Admitting it was a sort of weakness. Kurama was the weak one, not him.
Yet, he found himself watching Kurama. He would follow
him everywhere, always at a safe distance as to not alert Kurama's senses to
his presense. He did get the sense that Kurama stometimes knew. He had to know.
He probably figured it out when Hiei got a little too close while watching. And
he took advantage of it as much as possible.
"That one
isn't that great." Kurama was leaning over a fellow classmate who was
selecting a cd. His hand brushed against the boy's hand. "But this one
here...well..." Kurama's eyes lifted to meet the other boy's the same way
they had met Hiei's. "I find it more interesting."
glowered from up in the tree. He felt something white hot run through him, some
feeling of hatred for that boy with Kurama. Just what were the two of them
doing together anyways? He tried to tell himself that it was stupid, that it
didn't matter, that he should find something else to do bu cou couldn't help
it.
wanted to be here. Kurama said good-bye to his friend and began to walk along
the sidewalk, Hiei crept cautiously closer.
know you're there." Kurama confirmed what Hiei suspected. He jumped out of
a tree, right in front of Kurama, maybe hoping to through the red-head off
balance.
Hiei folded his arms. "I left something of mine."
yes, that cloth." Kurama rummaged through his pockets. "I must have
left it at home. It's not far from here..." And Kurama began to walk away
before turning a little. The setting sun behind him made Kurama's hair glow a
strange medley of autumn colors. Hiei pretended not to notice.
didn't snythnything, Hiei didn't want anything to be said. What would they talk
about? It wasn't like old times where they'd be out on missions together,
fighting together, bragging together. No, everything had changed somehow.
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led him inside the house, no one else was home it seemed. Kurama started to go
upstairs and Hiei followed patiently. He was just going to grab it and then put
as many miles as he could between him and Kurama. He'd leave the fucking
country, that would probably lessen this strange yearning to simply jump Kurama
there in the middle of the stairs.
went into Kurama's bedroom and Kurama was looking for it, rummaging around.
Where had he put it?
tell me you lost it." Hiei was a bit irritated. "You're such an
idiot."
Kurama's lips pursed. "It's in here, so please, just sit down while I
look."
Hiei just sat down on Kurama's bed and his fingers slid over the sheets, gods
he remembered those sheets. The slightly silky feel of them. He slid his hand
along to the pillow and then the headboard, touching the bars he knew he had
tied Kurama to. His mind had wandered but came right back when he felt a hand
on his leg.
was kneeling on the floor, his hand resting lightly on Hiei's leg as though he
meant to use it as a support to help himself up.
look bored." Kurama's smile was seductive. Hiei looked at him coldly,
trying not to let his face match his emotions which were burning as Kurama's
hand seemed to move upwards of it's own accord. "One should never let a
guest become bored while entertaining."
hands slid up to Kurama's waistband and then began to pull them doHieiHiei
didn't stop him, he didn't care what Kurama was going to do, it involved his
pants coming off which didn't seem like a bad thing at all around the
wild-haired young man. His erection was beginning to hurt a little as Kurama
freed it.
without warning, Kurama's lips slid down the length of it and Hiei bit his lip
to stop from yelling out. Kurama's head bobbed up and down and Hiei's fists
tightened around the sheets gripped in his hands. He felt Kurama's lips and
tongue and it was enough to send him over edgeedge.
wasn't sure what he expected Kurama to do. Hiei felt like he had practically
exploded inside Kurama's mouth. Kurama raised his head, looking directly into
Hiei's eyes, Hiei saw a small bit of white on Kurama's bottom lip. Then Kurama
seemed to realize it too and he licked it off with a quick flick of his tongue.
Hiei then noticed the white tie on the bedside table in plain view.
Hiei picked it up. "So this is why you wanted me to come up here." <
I wanted you to do me a favor." Kurama batted his long eyelashed. "I
don't give unless I plan to receive."
don't do favors." Hiei spoke bluntly.
realize. That's why I suggest a proposition." Kurama looked remarkably
calm for somebody who had moments before been giving a blowjob.
that?" Hiei raised an eyebrow, trying to make it look as though he wasn't
already interested.
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rather silly that the two of us have to keep playing these games." Kurama
began to explain. "So I propose that we stop them now and do exactly as we
please."
you're saying..." Hiei trailed off questioninly.
No strings attached." Kurama put it plaininly.
With changes of course. At first the two of them would
get on with their business and then Hiei would leave to go somewhere and count
down the hours before it was time to go back to Kurama's house. Sometimes he
would visit twice a day, sometimes three. And then things started to change.
Hiei would stay as long as possible, sometimes just
kissing Kurama for an hour afterwards or falling asleep there. One day he woke
up in the late afternoon to find Kurama was gone and then had proceeded to get
dressed before Kurama came in flushed from running home from school and they
repeatedt nit night.
He would begin to stay for days at a time and though his
prescence had to be hidden from others, it didn't really matter to him. It was
no longer just sex. It was sex, then maybe kissing, then sex, then curling up
with Kurama and getting some sleep.
Hiei tried to tell himself that it didn't
Surely, if he had found someone else it would have been the same. But it felt
like he was lying every time he tried to tell himself that while Kurama wrapped
his arms around him and snuggled deep into his embrace.
And then those ridiculous adventures with those
ridiculous humans. Hiei didn't care one way or another but those times when
they were fighting made him realize something very important.
Kurama didn't trust him. It was obvious. Kurama didn't trust him at all. And for No strings attached...it sounded like a good idea. In If he died in battle, would Kurama find someone else to Hiei watched Kurama sleep on, not knowing what Hiei was "I think you're learning patience." Kurama "I don't want that." He was annoyed that Kurama "What?" Kurama seemed confused now. "I don't want that." Hiei repeated. "I'm "Suit yourself." Kurama leaned over and his "Stop that." Hiei sat up. "What's wrong with you?" Kurama looked...well, "Nothing...I was just thinking." Hiei laid back "What the hell?" Hiei looked confused. "You're never going to let me in are you?" "What? You're the one who-" Hiei began. "I tell you things! I try to anyways but you don't "Kurama, come back to bed." Hiei's brow "No." Kurama shook his head. "You realize "I could say the same thing about you!" Hiei "Really? I've tried! I've tried and I'm sick of "Find a different fuck buddy." Kurama opened "Kurama!" Hiei was out of bed as fast as "Dammit, Hiei..." Kurama's lips pursed, just And the more that this all occured to him, the more he "Don't leave Kurama." Hiei practically ordered. pan>pan>"Trusting each other?" Kurama's head cocked "That and...other things." Hiei didn't like That was it. That choice just hanging in the air and "I won't lose you either." And suddenly the rest of the world had disappeared for Strangely, the two demons who had so desperately guarded * Um...doom? Seriously, I wasn't going to be so explicit
some reason, this nagged at him and nagged at him. He thought about this so
often that it made him irritable and could only be soothed by Kurama, who
always knew just what to say.
reality, Hiei was beginning to wonder about those strings.
fuck? Someone better then him? If Kurama died, would Hiei find someone else?
The idea was too foreign in his head. He couldn't really imagine someone else
like Kurama. Kurama was irreplacable as a companion. Beautiful, seductive,
dangerous.
thinking about. Then Kurama stirred slightly and sat up, opening his eyes. He
seemed surprised that Hiei was just staring at him but he smiled.
almost laughed.
immediately jumped to that conclusion, but why was he annoyed?
going back to sleep."
lips clamped down on Hiei's ear.
angry. Almost rejected.
down and rolled over. "It\tupitupid, go back to sleep." Instead of
simply complying with this, Kurama got up out of bed and began to put his
clothes on.
Ka'sa's words were followed by stunned silence. "You're never going to
let me know who you are, I'm just your stupid sex toy and...I'm sick of
it." Kurama continued his task.
care. You brush me off all the time. Well fuou Hou Hiei." Kurama pulled on
a pair of shoes. "I'm not dealing with this anymore."
knitted.
you've never trusted me? Not once?"
was furious for this sudden round of accusations. Where the hell was all this
coming from? Was it possible that Kurama was thinking about the same things he
was?
trying anymore." Kurama shook his head.
the door to his room. "I don't care anymore."
possible, stopping Kurama, holding onto his wrist and Kurama tried to struggle
out of his grip. "This is your house, aren't I supposed to be the one to
storm out?"
like they others did when he was frustrated or didn't know how to respond to
Hiei's frustrating ways. Hiei knew that. And it made him smile. It was an odd
thing, him smiling like that and realizing that he was glad he knew that about
Kurama, he knew so many things about Kurama. From the way that Kurama liked his
neck kissed ( so soft you could barely feel it) to the way that Kurama liked
his lemonade (As little sugar as possible so it was rather tart).
smiled. Kurama was looking at him strangely now. He didn't understand why Hiei
was smiling like that.
"I know that we haven't trusted each other and maybe it's because...well,
how do you tranybanybody where we come from? But...maybe...we should give it a
try."
slightly to one side.
baring this much of himself, wide open for attack by Kurama. "I won't lose
you Kurama. But...you can walk away if you want."
then...and then Kurama kissed him. Not their usual hungry kisses but softer
ones.
the two.
themselves against this sort of thing had broken the walls that lie between
them.
but then I was like..."Er, then can handle it." Yeah. I imagine those
two had a strange strange relationship. I mean, I don't really think it was all
cute and lovey dovey. ^_^. They aren't Nuriko and Hotohori anyways. Well, hope
you enjoyed.