Unwanted Feelings
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Yuyu Hakusho › Yaoi - Male/Male
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Adult ++
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6,514
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Disclaimer: I do not own any right to the song used in this chapter [Kelly Clarkson - Addicted], as passionate and heartbreaking as it is!
A/N: My internet is back early! WHOOHOO! The only reason there are two versions of the final chapter is because I didn't want to choose between two songs, ironically, both titled "Addicted"
REVIEWERS THANK YOU: even if it was a short review, i don't mind or care because to me what matters is that you even TOOK the time to tell me to update or whatever. =]
comicfancat
hColleen
Yamistar- trust me i would not be able to write a good death. lols.
yuyugirl4ever
Heidi
December Wind - I'm glad I'm not the only one with stalker-like characteristics when it comes to updates ^^;;
Fuzzy Eared- thank you for pointing my grammar out, and i'll admit it, it is one of my weak points. bleh. but hey with experience comes improvement i hope. ^^
KitsuneBaby2004
MultifacetedTune- LOLS. I didn't even notice. I hope people didn't fall into my author's note.
Unwanted Feelings - Chpt 8v2 - Love
It had already been two weeks since that incident. Kurama stared out his bedroom window, still remembering what had occurred many days ago. Nobody knew about what had happened. Both put on great facades, living life as if nothing had occurred. Demon pride was letting them both live a lie, and kept them from falling down the cliff of depression. They would not show weakness. But just because they lived on, did not mean it was painlessly. Words left unsaid filled voids in cold, aged hearts.
It was raining outside that glass barrier. The heavens cried endlessly as the sky reflected the rich dark color of a lover's mane. The red haired figure watched from his window. The rain seemed to come down by the gallons. His view to the outside was impaired as drops crashed violently on the glass. Hiei's absence seemed to be the bane of his existence.
"Heartless" How could he have even thought those words? He wished for clemency from the gods. He didn't want to be left with such a lonely goodbye.
~~~~~~~~~
His legs carried him faster and faster. The rain that beat against his lithe figure was nothing. Since he had left the fox, every other thought was composed of scenes from the past. A wrenching feeling crept its way into his heart and would not leave. Only Kurama was able instill these feelings in him. He passed the borders of the Makai, only looking forward to his destination ahead. Some things have to be done.
~~~~~~~~~
Dark clouds painted the sky as Kurama's eyes filled with something that resembled the precipitation outside. He had almost missed the figure which appeared, blending in with the dark sky. Their eyes met, and Kurama opened the window, waiting for Hiei's entrance. The cold air that whipped into the temperate room caused Kurama to shiver. Hiei stepped in and closed the window behind him, already dry from his heating abilities.
So it's now or never...
Kurama sat down on his bed, eyes never leaving Hiei's boots. Too many thought seemed to run through his head and he needed something to support him. It was then that arms encircled him, giving him the much needed support he could not find with the bed. The next lines were barely over a whisper.
"Don't cry because of me."
Kurama buried his head into Hiei's chest to stop the waterfall of tears. He sniffled, and stopped, breathing becoming normal once again. Hiei took a hold of Kurama's chin and tilted the fox's head up. Kurama was surprised when Hiei captured his lips with his own. When they parted, he saw the completely emotionless of Hiei. It was now. He had to do it now or he might loose the one in front of him. Once again he embraced Hiei, this time he spoke.
"Hiei, I... I just want, just once."
The Koorime looked down at the redhead, unsure of what he meant. Kurama looked up, straight into those pools of blood.
"Just once, pretend to make love with me, and then we can just go back to normal."
It was a bold request, and left Hiei stunned. He never would have thought that the beautiful creature in front of him would request such a thing. He had never seen such desperation in those eyes, such a yearning look. He answered the only way he could, and took the fox's lips once again.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The thunder outside sounded like the heartbreaks of the two demons on the bed. Lightning brought out the outlines of two muscular figures, tangled in the most intimate of embraces. Hiei leaned back as he was pushed onto his back. Kurama watched as his lover did so, and it seemed as if the scene was done in slow motion. Hiei was breathtaking; every motion the Koorime made played over and over in Kurama's mind. He captured every moment in his mind, knowing deep in his heart that this would all end soon.
It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
Hiei had his arms wrapped around Kurama's neck, bringing them into a passionate kiss. Kurama slipped his tongue in as Hiei allowed entrance. It was not an aggressive duel as it was before, but rather a tender caress. One of Kurama's hands came in between their bodies to pump Hiei's already-hard member. Hiei moaned into their kiss, eyes closing as if from fatigue. Kurama also memorized this sight, Hiei looked so pure, and eyes closed so lightly, his lids seemingly weightless. He kissed down Hiei's arm and looked into the Koorime's eyes.
"You're too beautiful."
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time
Lips crashed once more on time with the boom of thunder outside. Hiei propelled himself up against the pumping hand. Kurama detached his lips and watched as Hiei moved under him, mouth agape and letting out small yips. His blood red eyes were glazed over with pleasure. The lightning illuminated the room for a split second, and left the room in darkness once again.
"Kurama." He had managed to get that out between gasps.
"Shh..."
"You're beautiful too."
Kurama nipped at Hiei's shoulder upon this. He had to stop himself from tearing; he wanted this to last forever. Hiei was too kind. The Koorime pulled on one of his side locks, making him look up at his lover.
"Come."
Kurama understood and covered the Koorime's lips as he inserted a finger into the demon. Vibrations rang through his lips as Hiei moaned in response. The rain played a melody of the same tune on the window. The tight ring of muscle contracted around his finger over and over again, but Hiei pushed against his finger, urging him on. Soon enough he was pumping three fingers in and out of the small demon, moans never ending.
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
He moved downward and captured Hiei's length in his mouth. The demon arched up into Kurama's mouth as the fox bobbed his head up and down. He pursed his lips tight around Hiei's member, drawing moans from his dear Koorime. He engulfed the Koorime fully, only to pull back up slowly, stopping when only the tip was in his mouth. He gave a vigorous suck to the sensitive head, and repeated the treatment.
"Kurama, please..."
He looked up to see his lover clearly as lightning struck, he could not have enough of Hiei. He let Hiei's rigid member slip out of his mouth as he ensnared Hiei's lips yet again. He grinded his own need against Hiei's, bringing moans from both of them. The thunder created a beat like drums as he parted from the breathtaking Koorime. He looked into those red depths, begging for some kind of release. He heart was imprisoned by the demon in form of him, someone who had so easily captured his heart.
It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now
Hiei shut his eyes and Kurama got into position. The feeling of a sudden tightness around his caused him to let out an untamed moan. He grabbed Kurama's hips to keep him still as he fought the compulsion to thrust up into the kitsune. He opened his eyes with a look of confusion etched on his face. The kitsune physique enhanced by another strike of lightning, face showing nothing but pure devotion and trust.
"I'll always be yours Hiei. Take me."
Kurama's husky tone brought out a savage, untamed part of Hiei. He gasped as Kurama, by now well adjusted to Hiei's size, began to shift. Their pace began slowly as Kurama lowered and lifted himself. He felt Hiei inside of him so distinctly. He felt every pulsing vein and muscle. Tears threatened to fall from his eyes as he knew that he and Hiei were one for this moment in time.
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
Their speed heightened as Hiei started to thrust up at the same time the fox lowered onto him. He could not deny his fox anything at all. He had not the heart to do so, his own heart damaged so many times before. But he knew that while he fought it, Kurama did not. Emotions ran through Kurama.
He tugged on Kurama's side locks urgently, bringing him down for a kiss. He saw that the fox's eyelashes were drenched, the scent of salty tears left behind. He changed his angle of thrust and was pleased when Kurama screamed into their kiss. He aimed to hit that spot with every thrust. Kurama almost could not take such great pleasure and broke their kiss. He couldn't breathe, Hiei knew exactly how to pleasure him. He took hold of his neck area and sucked, a mark was definitely going to be left behind. He reached for Kurama's member amid their moving bodies and stroked the neglected member. This only worked to bring out more moans from the kitsune as he moved himself faster and faster. Hiei could hear the fox's breathing in his ear, short and ragged.
"Ah. Love, I'm so close."
He chanted Hiei's name endlessly as the Koorime thrust into him at unimaginable speeds. Liquid fire ran through his body and suddenly all rushed towards one place. He screamed his lover's name at release, singing along with a boom of thunder. Contractions squeezed Hiei's member mercilessly, bringing him to orgasm. Kurama whimpered as he felt fangs dig into him, still riding a wave of pleasure.
"Hiei..."
I'm hooked on you
I need a hit
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
He collapsed onto his lover, trying to gather his thoughts. The chest under him vibrated as Hiei spoke.
"I'm sorry."
Kurama let out a deep sigh, he knew what this signified. He had marked him, put him under his protection, and accepted his feelings. But he did not return them, for he had not prompted Kurama to do the same back. He knew this well, and could do nothing but accept it. He loved the dark demon enough to know, you can't FORCE love.
"It's okay, I'm okay."
But really, he was everything but okay. He had to tell himself, as long as Hiei was happy, he was happy.
The rain never seemed to stop.
_End.
Ending Notes: Yep, so they don't get together. I really do not like clichés. Okay who am I kidding, I love the "we get together after hardships and angst" ending! But I didn't feel like I could write that. So review please and tell me how you liked it. =] I'm thinking of making another virgin Youko fic like my DayDream fic, but that would probabaly have to wait. I mean come on guys, let's be honest, DayDream sucked, and i'll admit that. ^^;;
A/N: My internet is back early! WHOOHOO! The only reason there are two versions of the final chapter is because I didn't want to choose between two songs, ironically, both titled "Addicted"
REVIEWERS THANK YOU: even if it was a short review, i don't mind or care because to me what matters is that you even TOOK the time to tell me to update or whatever. =]
comicfancat
hColleen
Yamistar- trust me i would not be able to write a good death. lols.
yuyugirl4ever
Heidi
December Wind - I'm glad I'm not the only one with stalker-like characteristics when it comes to updates ^^;;
Fuzzy Eared- thank you for pointing my grammar out, and i'll admit it, it is one of my weak points. bleh. but hey with experience comes improvement i hope. ^^
KitsuneBaby2004
MultifacetedTune- LOLS. I didn't even notice. I hope people didn't fall into my author's note.
Unwanted Feelings - Chpt 8v2 - Love
It had already been two weeks since that incident. Kurama stared out his bedroom window, still remembering what had occurred many days ago. Nobody knew about what had happened. Both put on great facades, living life as if nothing had occurred. Demon pride was letting them both live a lie, and kept them from falling down the cliff of depression. They would not show weakness. But just because they lived on, did not mean it was painlessly. Words left unsaid filled voids in cold, aged hearts.
It was raining outside that glass barrier. The heavens cried endlessly as the sky reflected the rich dark color of a lover's mane. The red haired figure watched from his window. The rain seemed to come down by the gallons. His view to the outside was impaired as drops crashed violently on the glass. Hiei's absence seemed to be the bane of his existence.
"Heartless" How could he have even thought those words? He wished for clemency from the gods. He didn't want to be left with such a lonely goodbye.
~~~~~~~~~
His legs carried him faster and faster. The rain that beat against his lithe figure was nothing. Since he had left the fox, every other thought was composed of scenes from the past. A wrenching feeling crept its way into his heart and would not leave. Only Kurama was able instill these feelings in him. He passed the borders of the Makai, only looking forward to his destination ahead. Some things have to be done.
~~~~~~~~~
Dark clouds painted the sky as Kurama's eyes filled with something that resembled the precipitation outside. He had almost missed the figure which appeared, blending in with the dark sky. Their eyes met, and Kurama opened the window, waiting for Hiei's entrance. The cold air that whipped into the temperate room caused Kurama to shiver. Hiei stepped in and closed the window behind him, already dry from his heating abilities.
So it's now or never...
Kurama sat down on his bed, eyes never leaving Hiei's boots. Too many thought seemed to run through his head and he needed something to support him. It was then that arms encircled him, giving him the much needed support he could not find with the bed. The next lines were barely over a whisper.
"Don't cry because of me."
Kurama buried his head into Hiei's chest to stop the waterfall of tears. He sniffled, and stopped, breathing becoming normal once again. Hiei took a hold of Kurama's chin and tilted the fox's head up. Kurama was surprised when Hiei captured his lips with his own. When they parted, he saw the completely emotionless of Hiei. It was now. He had to do it now or he might loose the one in front of him. Once again he embraced Hiei, this time he spoke.
"Hiei, I... I just want, just once."
The Koorime looked down at the redhead, unsure of what he meant. Kurama looked up, straight into those pools of blood.
"Just once, pretend to make love with me, and then we can just go back to normal."
It was a bold request, and left Hiei stunned. He never would have thought that the beautiful creature in front of him would request such a thing. He had never seen such desperation in those eyes, such a yearning look. He answered the only way he could, and took the fox's lips once again.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The thunder outside sounded like the heartbreaks of the two demons on the bed. Lightning brought out the outlines of two muscular figures, tangled in the most intimate of embraces. Hiei leaned back as he was pushed onto his back. Kurama watched as his lover did so, and it seemed as if the scene was done in slow motion. Hiei was breathtaking; every motion the Koorime made played over and over in Kurama's mind. He captured every moment in his mind, knowing deep in his heart that this would all end soon.
It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
Hiei had his arms wrapped around Kurama's neck, bringing them into a passionate kiss. Kurama slipped his tongue in as Hiei allowed entrance. It was not an aggressive duel as it was before, but rather a tender caress. One of Kurama's hands came in between their bodies to pump Hiei's already-hard member. Hiei moaned into their kiss, eyes closing as if from fatigue. Kurama also memorized this sight, Hiei looked so pure, and eyes closed so lightly, his lids seemingly weightless. He kissed down Hiei's arm and looked into the Koorime's eyes.
"You're too beautiful."
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time
Lips crashed once more on time with the boom of thunder outside. Hiei propelled himself up against the pumping hand. Kurama detached his lips and watched as Hiei moved under him, mouth agape and letting out small yips. His blood red eyes were glazed over with pleasure. The lightning illuminated the room for a split second, and left the room in darkness once again.
"Kurama." He had managed to get that out between gasps.
"Shh..."
"You're beautiful too."
Kurama nipped at Hiei's shoulder upon this. He had to stop himself from tearing; he wanted this to last forever. Hiei was too kind. The Koorime pulled on one of his side locks, making him look up at his lover.
"Come."
Kurama understood and covered the Koorime's lips as he inserted a finger into the demon. Vibrations rang through his lips as Hiei moaned in response. The rain played a melody of the same tune on the window. The tight ring of muscle contracted around his finger over and over again, but Hiei pushed against his finger, urging him on. Soon enough he was pumping three fingers in and out of the small demon, moans never ending.
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
He moved downward and captured Hiei's length in his mouth. The demon arched up into Kurama's mouth as the fox bobbed his head up and down. He pursed his lips tight around Hiei's member, drawing moans from his dear Koorime. He engulfed the Koorime fully, only to pull back up slowly, stopping when only the tip was in his mouth. He gave a vigorous suck to the sensitive head, and repeated the treatment.
"Kurama, please..."
He looked up to see his lover clearly as lightning struck, he could not have enough of Hiei. He let Hiei's rigid member slip out of his mouth as he ensnared Hiei's lips yet again. He grinded his own need against Hiei's, bringing moans from both of them. The thunder created a beat like drums as he parted from the breathtaking Koorime. He looked into those red depths, begging for some kind of release. He heart was imprisoned by the demon in form of him, someone who had so easily captured his heart.
It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now
Hiei shut his eyes and Kurama got into position. The feeling of a sudden tightness around his caused him to let out an untamed moan. He grabbed Kurama's hips to keep him still as he fought the compulsion to thrust up into the kitsune. He opened his eyes with a look of confusion etched on his face. The kitsune physique enhanced by another strike of lightning, face showing nothing but pure devotion and trust.
"I'll always be yours Hiei. Take me."
Kurama's husky tone brought out a savage, untamed part of Hiei. He gasped as Kurama, by now well adjusted to Hiei's size, began to shift. Their pace began slowly as Kurama lowered and lifted himself. He felt Hiei inside of him so distinctly. He felt every pulsing vein and muscle. Tears threatened to fall from his eyes as he knew that he and Hiei were one for this moment in time.
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
Their speed heightened as Hiei started to thrust up at the same time the fox lowered onto him. He could not deny his fox anything at all. He had not the heart to do so, his own heart damaged so many times before. But he knew that while he fought it, Kurama did not. Emotions ran through Kurama.
He tugged on Kurama's side locks urgently, bringing him down for a kiss. He saw that the fox's eyelashes were drenched, the scent of salty tears left behind. He changed his angle of thrust and was pleased when Kurama screamed into their kiss. He aimed to hit that spot with every thrust. Kurama almost could not take such great pleasure and broke their kiss. He couldn't breathe, Hiei knew exactly how to pleasure him. He took hold of his neck area and sucked, a mark was definitely going to be left behind. He reached for Kurama's member amid their moving bodies and stroked the neglected member. This only worked to bring out more moans from the kitsune as he moved himself faster and faster. Hiei could hear the fox's breathing in his ear, short and ragged.
"Ah. Love, I'm so close."
He chanted Hiei's name endlessly as the Koorime thrust into him at unimaginable speeds. Liquid fire ran through his body and suddenly all rushed towards one place. He screamed his lover's name at release, singing along with a boom of thunder. Contractions squeezed Hiei's member mercilessly, bringing him to orgasm. Kurama whimpered as he felt fangs dig into him, still riding a wave of pleasure.
"Hiei..."
I'm hooked on you
I need a hit
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
He collapsed onto his lover, trying to gather his thoughts. The chest under him vibrated as Hiei spoke.
"I'm sorry."
Kurama let out a deep sigh, he knew what this signified. He had marked him, put him under his protection, and accepted his feelings. But he did not return them, for he had not prompted Kurama to do the same back. He knew this well, and could do nothing but accept it. He loved the dark demon enough to know, you can't FORCE love.
"It's okay, I'm okay."
But really, he was everything but okay. He had to tell himself, as long as Hiei was happy, he was happy.
The rain never seemed to stop.
_End.
Ending Notes: Yep, so they don't get together. I really do not like clichés. Okay who am I kidding, I love the "we get together after hardships and angst" ending! But I didn't feel like I could write that. So review please and tell me how you liked it. =] I'm thinking of making another virgin Youko fic like my DayDream fic, but that would probabaly have to wait. I mean come on guys, let's be honest, DayDream sucked, and i'll admit that. ^^;;