My December

**Wheeeeeee I wanted to write the next chap now but that means it may suck just like the last one did. I'm thinkin that when I sober up I may re-write them but that's if I think they suck really bad. As of now though I kinda like what I'm doin. This is gonna be in Touya's POV so hate me if ya want but this is what I think he'd be like. Also yall can hate me for emo Jin but I love emo Jin.....MOVING ON!!!**

~~Touya's POV~~
I knew he could see through me, I just stopped caring a long time ago. Jin was...different, but not in a bad way. After all the ice it was good to have a warm front coming in. I could feel his youkai changing and becoming happier. You think that would annoy me just like all the others had, but not him. I think it was his smile, not his fake smile that everyone else got, but the real smile. That smile was only for me. That smile meant that he was happy. I made him happy. My lips curled slightly into a slight smile and I knew he could feel it. He was smiling too. I wanted to tell him, my idea was on the tip of my lips, but I couldn't chance it. I knew of a place where we could slip through into the human world and I didn't want anyone disturbing us. This was going to be our escape. Just Jin and me. I glanced over my shoulder again to see his hands placed lightly on his red head and his teeth showing past his lips. That was his fake smile. I shook my head slightly and I could hear him whine.
"Wat?"
"Didn't I tell you not to do that?"
"But that's me face! I can't help wat me face look like." I made sure he couldn't see my face as another smile forced it's self to my face. It was his voice too. That weird accent that I'd never heard before. It was intoxicating. My shoulders jumped and my youkai raised as something touch my shoulders. My head turned around to find Jin smiling softly. His dark blue eyes seemed far away as he ran a finger in between my shoulder blades. That was my smile.
"What are you doing?"
"Yar so tense ya know that? Ya think to much about all this, jus' let it all go for a bit." I blinked at him, and smacked his hand away. His smile faded a bit and his ears flattened. That hurt. I turned my back to him in order to avoid eye contact and kept walking. If I looked into his eyes now I'd brake down. All those years of blocking myself away from all things warm torn away by a simple glance of those deep eyes. I could feel his youkai lowing again but he kept floating which was a good sign. As annoying as that was, it was a good sign. It meant that I didn't hurt him to bad. I mentally hit myself again as we walked in silence. I hated how I did it, I didn't know why I did it, but I did. It was like I made it my sworn duty to cause pain to the one person that could actually stand me and I hated it. But that was just another one of the countless things I hated about myself. Finally the silence got to me and I glanced over my shoulder again.
"I found a way." Jin's youkai shot up with pure joy and I couldn't help but let him see my smile this time.
"Really? Ya did? How?" I chuckled softly at his eagerness and turned back to the jungle path we walked.
"It's a hole. The barrier is becoming weaker because a few humans on that side attempting to break it. That hole is guarded, but I found another one. I don't even think they know about it yet so we should be able to get through it easily enough." Jin laughed, a real laugh, as he spun himself through the air above me. I glanced up at him and let myself keep my smile on my face. I loved to see him happy. My smile left me and I sighed at my own inner thought. He landed behind me again a few moments later and began to chat on and on about how the light felt. He had never stopped talking about it's warmth, but I didn't want that. I wanted to become part of the light. I wanted to be one with it forever, never wanting to go back to the dark dread that was our so called home. This place was hell in more then one sense. I managed to ignore him enough to concentrate on where we were going. Finally, hours later, I stopped in front of a clear wall. Well it wasn't really a wall. A large rock tower was standing in front of us, higher then I think even Jin could fly, with black stains covering it. In the middle was a small clear hole we shall call it. Shadows passed by on the other side, but I couldn't make anything out. Jin yelled out and ran to it. His feet made soft padding noises on the rock covered ground and I smiled again. He was actually walking. He placed his hands on the clear object and ripples slowly appeared where he touched. He glanced over at me, a huge smile covering his face.
"How do we get through?" I walked over to him and pushed my arm roughly through. Pain ran down my arm, but I knew it wouldn't hurt him as badly if I forced myself through first. I caused the boy so much pain, if I could keep him from having anymore I would. I smiled at him, daring him to follow silently, and let myself fall through. Heat rushed through my body and the pain blinded me, but I would give it all away for that smile.

**OMFK I don't think I did that bad with this one. Maybe I won't rewrite this one. Thank the goddess for spellcheck though cause I can't spell when I'm sober. I think this one was a little longer then the last and the third should be even longer. I really have no clue where I'm going with this but I often never do. I normally just wing it as I go along. Post any comment that comes to mind please and I promise that the next chap will be a bit more interesting.**