FINDING MY WAY HOME

Hey all. I hope this chapter came out ok. I know you pervs will like the beginning, I’m just not sure the rest flowed as smoothly as I’d like. Oh well, it will have to do. I could make this the end, it would be a good place to stop, but doubt anyone else would agree. I have an idea that will not only prolong the story, but give me a few more opportunities to torment our boys. Enjoy, and don’t forget to leave more of your wonderful review that I love so much.

Chapter 12

“Make love to me Hiei.”

At first only silence met my request. After a moment I find myself rolled onto my back, with Hiei looking down at me. I can’t read the dark look in his eyes. “Will it be making love Kurama?”

Remembering him asking the same question before he would make love to me as a demon, I smile softly. “Yes Hiei, it will. I can’t explain it but there is a connection between us that makes me feel like I’ve loved you forever. I don’t want to wait any more Hiei. I want you to feel how much I love you too.”

It must have been the right answer, because his warm lips claim mine in a passionate kiss. Feeling myself harden at the simple contact, I become acutely aware of our naked bodies rubbing together. I’m pleased to realize this excites me even more. Hiei must have realized it too because with a little growl he rubs himself harder against me. Unable to control myself, I pull my lips from his and moan. “Hiei.”

When he stops moving, I look up at him curiously. Once again his is just watching me. After a moment he moves off of me. “Roll over on your stomach Koi.”

Heart-warmed to hear the endearment slip from his lips, I do as he asks. As soon as I’m settled, Hiei straddles my waist, resting his bare behind on mine. I didn’t have even a second to wonder what he was doing when I feel my hair pulled aside and his warm hands settle on my shoulders. I don’t even try to stifle the little moan that escapes my lips as his strong fingers knead my shoulders and neck.

All too soon his hands move lower, but I’m not disappointed as they work their way across my entire back. When he reaches my waist I feel him rise off my behind and move to my thighs. Nervously, I bite my lip as his hands caressed my behind. He didn’t linger though before moving his touch to my hips and thighs. He moved off me as he massaged my legs. When he did my feet, he raised each one and gently kissed my insole before moving up my legs again.

By now I’m no longer biting my lip. Instead, my mouth is open and I’m practically drooling. A gasp escapes as warm lips caress the back of each knee in a gentle kiss. Gently pushing my legs apart, Hiei’s fingers caress my inner thighs. Before his touch makes me nervous though, he moves to my behind. Without stopping, Hiei leans over to nibble at my lower back. My toes curl as shocks of pleasure shoot through my body. I feel his breath across my flesh as he chuckles. “That’s one of your favorite spots.”

If I could have formed the words, I would have told him I understand why, but he’s made his way to my back again and those wicked lips were nibbling the back of my neck now. When a loud moan leaves my lips, I bury my face against the pillow. Again Hiei chuckles. “I can have anything I want when I kiss you here.”

He wasn’t lying. Right this moment I would give him anything to not stop. His delicious assault on the back of my neck is over with his next words. “Roll over on your back Kurama.”

Without hesitation I roll onto my back and am instantly rewarded with a sensual kiss. Before I can lock my arms around his neck though, he moves away. Hiei is now straddling my waist, with his hands roaming my chest. “It’s been far too long since I’ve touched you my Fox, and I intend to touch all of you.”

And touch me he did. My chest and arms were rubbed, then my nipples were licked and suckled. As he moves to my waist then my hips, I hold my breath. A moment later I release it, disappointed when he’s completely bypassed my erection. I feel my cheeks warm in a blush when I realize how exposed I am and that this is the first time that I can remember anyone seeing my naked body.

My embarrassment is forgotten a moment later when Hiei’s lips nibble the tip of my big toe. Only after he’s paid homage to both does he move back up my legs. This time though, when he reaches my knees, my legs are parted and he is between them. His gaze locks with mine as he kisses the inside of each knee. When his hands move to massage the inside of my thighs I close my eyes. A moment later they shoot open when sharp teeth nip my inner thigh. The smirk he gives me lets me know he wants my attention.

And he has my full attention as I look down at him. He’s bent both my knees and is settled squarely between them. Right before him I am fully erect and weeping in anticipation of his touch. When his hand reaches for me, I bite my lip. Only one finger touches me though. After running it over my weeping tip he takes his finger to his mouth. When he suckles the wet finger into his mouth I swallow hard.

When he seems satisfied, Hiei reaches for the base of my cock. As he leans closer I see his cute little tongue dart out and my own mouth falls open. Feeling his warm, wet tongue lick me from root to tip, my throat tightens in a loud moan. My moan though becomes a strangled cry when his lips close over my tip and he swallows my length to the root. “HIEI!”

I can feel the rumble of his chuckle as his mouth begins to move on me. Warm and moist, his mouth works me. By now my head is thrown back and my fingers are fisted in the sheet. Wanton moans and cries leave my lips uncontrollably. Though I have no memory of ever experiencing this kind of pleasure before, I do know I missed it.

Minutes or hours could have passed as Hiei’s mouth and hands move on me. Suddenly my eyes pop open. The fingers of his free hand are no longer idly stroking my thigh. Instead they are gently probing and stroking me much more intimately. I begin to stiffen at the alien contact, but Hiei must have sensed my unease and gave my cock a little nip to refocus my attention on the pleasure his mouth is giving.

A moment later, the fingers invading me touch something that sends lightning bolts of pleasure through my body. Where a moment ago his touch made me uncomfortable, now I’m ready to fuck myself on those same fingers to reach the pleasure they promise. Hiei must have sensed my need because he is suckling me harder and his head is bobbing faster. Thrashing on the bed, stars light the inside of my eyelids as my pleasure erupts into Hiei’s mouth.

Panting, I collapse on the bed, the memory of my screams still echoing in the room. When Hiei crawled up to cuddle beside me I don’t know. With what little energy I can muster, I put my arm around him and kiss his temple. “Dear gods Hiei! What did you do to me?”

I could feel his smile against my shoulder. “It feels like ages since I’ve touched you Kurama. I was just reclaiming what is mine.”

Amazingly, I feel my body respond to his possessive words. “I don’t think there is an inch of me you didn’t touch. I think I’d like to touch some of you now.”

There is fire in the ruby eyes that smirk back at me as Hiei rubs his erection against my thigh. “There’s a certain part of me that I would love for you to touch it right now.”

My mouth waters at just the thought of touching and tasting this man. “Your wish is my command my love.”

I felt Hiei shiver as I push him onto his back. Crawling over him, I thoroughly kiss him before moving lower. Liking the feel of my flesh touching his, I rub myself on him until I am settled between his thighs. With his sizable erection before me, I’m suddenly nervous. Focusing on the memory of how I had pleasured him in my Yuko form, I wrap one hand around his base.

Experimentally, I kiss his smooth shaft. Hearing little gasps escape his lips, my tongue slips out for a taste. Shyly I look up to see Hiei propped on his elbows watching me. As if sensing my hesitation, he reaches out a hand to stroke my face and hair. “You don’t have to do anything you’re not comfortable with.”

Suddenly, I want to see some of the pleasure he gave reflected on his face. Holding his gaze, I slowly lick my lips then wrap them around the head of his cock. My reward was seeing Hiei throw his head back and moan. “Gods yes Kurama!”

Pleasure shoots straight to my groin as I watch him. Again using my Yuko memory, I slide him further into my mouth. It doesn’t take me long to realize that when my mouth brings him pleasure, my own body reacts. Hiei knows it too, and before long he begins taunting me. “You like that, don’t you Fox? Now suckle me hard and I’ll let you know how much I like it.”

Wanting to please him, I suckle harder and bob my head. When he moans loudly and his fingers tighten in my hair I nearly climax. Wanting my pleasure almost as much as I want his, I use both hands to caress him as my mouth moves on him. “That’s it Foxie! Don’t stop Baby! I love your hot little mouth on me!”

Gods that was all it took. Pulling my mouth from him I scream my pleasure again. Strong arms pull me up beside him. “No Hiei, I didn’t finish.”

Against the soft skin of my neck Hiei chuckled. “Oh yes you did. As for me, you did enough. Now, do you trust me?”

I don’t need to consider my answer as I nod. “Of course.”

Shifting, Hiei looked me in the eyes. “Get on your hands and knees.”

My body shivers in anticipation. If I learned anything tonight, it’s that Hiei knows my body and just what to do to bring me the greatest pleasure. So, pushing any trepidation aside, I do as he asks. Feeling my cheeks warm, I know I am blushing like made as I present my backside to him.

Moving behind me, Hiei uses one hand to caress my behind, then slides it lower to part my thighs. When he has me where he wants me, his other hand reaches for one of mine. Allowing him to raise my hand to the headboard, I shiver as he whispers in my ear. “You’re going to want to hold tight my Fox. You’re in for a wild ride.”

I’ve already climaxed twice yet here I am hardening in anticipation of a third. As if knowing I would be anxious the first time he takes me, Hiei doesn’t waste any time. He grabs my behind me and mounts me. I have a brief moment of fear when he first enters me, but when his hand gives my own length a few swift strokes, all that is forgotten. “Hiei!”

He hadn’t moved yet, but all I can think of is the pleasure his fingers gave me before. “That’s it Kurama, relax. I would never hurt you. You may not remember, but your body knows mine and will accommodate my size in just a moment.”

That said, Hiei began to move. If it weren’t for his hand stroking me I would have wondered what the appeal was. Then suddenly he moves deeper, and just like before, lightning bolts of pleasure shoot through me. Stroke after stroke of his body inside mine builds the pleasure almost beyond comprehension. When his hands move from my erection I almost cry in frustration. Then they are on me, touching, rubbing everywhere, building pleasure in ways I wasn’t expecting.

Unable to control myself, I moan and cry out my pleasure. “Oh gods Hiei! YES! Do that again! Yes, there! YES! YES! HIEI!”

I’m about to climax when Hiei changes the angle and rhythm of his thrusts. Before I can cry out my frustration the pleasure builds again. This time it is different, slower, deeper and more intense than before. Again I am moaning, unable to form words. How he knows when I am about to climax I don’t know, but every time I am he changes tactics. Every time he builds my pleasure higher and higher. Having lost track of time ages ago, I hang on tight and enjoy the ride.

When I don’t think I can take any more, I look over my shoulder and whisper weakly. “Make love to me Hiei.”

All motion stops. Before I can cry out though, Hiei gently pulls out of me and turns me over on my back. Too weak to do more than look up at him, I smile. The look in his eyes almost makes me cry tears of joy. “I love you Kurama.”

When he reenters me, I feel whole again. Memory or no memory, I know the one thing I could never live without is Hiei. Wrapping my arms and legs around him, I move with him as he strokes inside me. Surprisingly, this gentle lovemaking is every bit as exciting as the wild ride he gave me moments ago. Everywhere he touches me, I touch him. Everywhere he kisses me, I kiss him. When we each wrap a hand around my aching length and stroke, the climax I reach is more intense than any pleasure he’s given me so far.

Above me, Hiei tears his lips from mine and cries out his release. Feeling him pulse inside me draws out my climax until I fall limp against the sheets twitching as every nerve in my body slowly calm. Beside me, Hiei collapses. Several minutes pass before Hiei moves and pulls me into his arms. When he would have spoken, I lean in and silence him with a kiss. “I love you Hiei. How I could ever forget you and what we shared, I’ll never understand. What I do know is that no matter what, nothing will ever keep us apart.”

This night ended more perfectly than I ever dreamed. Hiei’s lips sealed over mine in a gentle kiss just before I drift off to sleep.

Three months after Kurama’s memory loss.

“Kurama!”

Kneeling over Hiei, I smile down at him. He’s sprawled out on his back, panting up at me. “Damn Fox, you’re getting really good at that.”

Behind me, Yusuke laughs. “He sure got you that time Hiei. I’d say instinct and reflexes are one thing his memory loss hasn’t hurt.”

Standing, I hold a hand out to Hiei, pulling him up. “That’s all thanks to Kuwabara’s suggestion that I channel my inner Yoko. This has all been so much easier since I started tapping my demon energy and instincts.”

Kuwabara whooped. “Yeah Shrimp, it was me that helped Kurama kick your ass just now.”

Instinct took over again as I whipped an arm out to grab Hiei around the waist a split second before he could fly at Kuwabara. “Shut up you big oaf! Don’t think I won’t do my sister a favor and make her a widow.”

I couldn’t help but grin at my growling mate. “Now Hiei, you know that would break Yukina’s heart. As for you Kuwabara, gloat all you want, but call my husband a shrimp again, and I’ll take you down again, this time for Hiei.”

When Kuwabara’s eyes widened, Yusuke burst out laughing. “Way to go Kuwa. Something else you’ve helped Kurama remember is that he needs to protect Hiei from killing you.”

Smiling, I kiss Hiei’s cheek. “Oh I don’t need Kuwabara to remind me to protect Hiei. I will always do that, no matter what. Now enough of this nonsense. I want to go back to how awesome I was today.”

Even Hiei laughed at me. “You were awesome my Fox. You sized up your opponents, predicted our attacks, and laid the field with seeds to help you fight. Don’t think your training is over though. We will continue to test your skills, and your limits, no matter how good you get.”

Accepting the challenge, I give him a seductive smile. “I look forward to it my Love. Right now though, I’m looking forward to seeing how you are going to reward me for all my hard work.”

In the ruby gaze that returned mine, I can see my challenge is accepted. “Well, we’re all the way out here, just a short run from your den by the hot spring. How about a hot bath before we play?”

Slipping from my arms, Hiei flitted away. Looking over my shoulder, I wink at Yusuke and Kuwabara. “Have fun boys, I have a date with my mate.”

As I sprint away I hear Yusuke laugh and Kuwabara grown. “TMI Kurama! TMI!”

Four months after Kurama’s memory loss.

Laying on my back, sated and content, I can feel Hiei’s fingers playing in my long silver hair. He’s laying beside me, in the circle of my arms, with his head resting on my shoulder. “Feeling better Fox?”

Nuzzling my face into his hair I kiss him and chuckle. “I don’t know if better is the word Hiei. Calmer maybe, but I’ve been feeling pretty damn good the past few days.”


Hiei grunts. “Yes, spring mating season is one of your favorite times of year. I should have remembered sooner and realized you wouldn’t know what was happening and brought you here sooner. I wonder if Kuwabara will ever recover from the shock.”

Mortified by the memory I groan. “Don’t remind me. How am I ever going to look any of our friends in the eye after what I did?”

He just scoffed at my embarrassment. “Believe me Kurama, they’ve seen you horny before. Well, maybe not half naked and trying to make out with anything that moved, but horny none the less.”

I groan again. “I was so hot, I just wanted my clothes off. Thank the gods you got there before I took my pants off too. At least the guys kept me from groping the girls much. Damn, they are pretty though and kiss so sweet. Made me miss things I don’t even remember ever having.”

I felt Hiei shake his head against my shoulder. “Yeah, I may have to have a word with Yusuke though. He was enjoying your attention a bit too much. If he hadn’t fallen down laughing at Kuwabara’s reaction when you grabbed his crotch, I might have had to kill him.”

I couldn’t help but laugh myself. “I may have scarred Kuwabara for life. As for Yusuke, he is a demon, so it’s only natural for him to respond to my advances.”

Raising a hand to shade his eyes from the afternoon sun, Hiei shrugged. “Yeah, I guess it wasn’t exactly his fault. You are hard to resist.”

Looking around, I can’t help but appreciate the beautiful backdrop for our love making. Tall trees surround us where we lay in a bed of thick plants. There are flowering bushes tucked into the rocks that border a large pond. The sound of water falling from the cliffs above is like soothing music in the peaceful oasis. “This place is beautiful Hiei. Why haven’t you brought me here before?”

Again Hiei shrugged. “We usually come twice a year. In the spring and fall during Youko mating season. The waterfall is fed from the snow peaked mountains, making the water too cold to swim in. The only time you can enjoy the icy water is while your temperature is high during mating season.”

I nod. “That makes sense. It’s perfect for how we spent the past few days. We have a very active sex life Hiei, but this was crazy. I didn’t know it was possible to make love for three straight days. It would have been four if Mukuro hadn’t summoned you that morning. I started feeling off as soon as you left. I can’t even imagine what would have happened if you hadn’t come back that same afternoon.”

I could feel Hiei’s laugh before I heard it. “Actually, the guys were trying to hold you down so Yukina could drug you. If I had been an hour later, you would have been out cold. I’m just glad you realized something was wrong and went to the temple for help.”

Remembering my real motive, I cringed. “I wasn’t looking for help Hiei, I was trying to get to you. The temple just happened to be on the way to the portal to Alaric.”

I didn’t need to hear him growl to know he was upset at the thought of me going to Makai alone, let alone horny as all get out. “Don’t even say it Hiei, I know. I wasn’t exactly thinking clearly, and I needed you. Under normal circumstances, I would never go to Makai without you.”

Luckily my words seemed to appease him. “Hiei, I was wondering. Is mating season the only time I like to… um… take the lead in our lovemaking?”

Rolling over, Hiei rested his chin on my chest and smirked at me. “Enjoyed that did you? No Kurama, though I’m usually the dominant partner in our lovemaking, you ‘take the lead’ on occasion. You are more dominant as a Youko than a human, so when your Youko hormones kick in at mating season, you’re usually in charge.”

Pleased with his answer, I grin. Rising to his knees, Hiei held a hand out to me. “What do you say Foxie? Do you think you can handle one last bath in that icy water? Then we’ll take a nap and head home and see how the human you likes being on top.”

Taking his hand, I let him pull me up. “If it’s too cold I’m sure my fire demon mate can warm me up.”

Five months after Kurama’s memory loss.

Looking across the training field at Hiei, Yusuke and Kuwabara, I can’t help but smile. This is my family. Somehow though, that same happy thought makes me sad. Turning away, I suddenly need to get away. Even though I know Hiei will follow, I head for the woods.

After only a few minutes I notice a change in the air. Raising my nose for a sniff, I suddenly smell the salty breeze from the sea. Even though I’ve never been this way, I know exactly where I am going. Though it’s not exactly a memory, I know I’ve been here before. That sense of familiarity can be comforting, yet annoying at the same time. Like life is taunting me with memories it won’t quite let me have.

Sure enough, just ahead I see the blue of the sea peeking through the tree line. A moment later I am standing at the edge of a cliff looking out at the sea. Below is the beach we’d all gone to for a picnic a few weeks ago. Looking around, I select a stable spot and have a seat. With my feet dangling over the edge I sit alone for some time just looking out at the sea.

Though I know he’s near, Hiei leaves me to my thoughts for over an hour before I feel him join me. Looking up, I give him a little smile and pat the ledge beside me. When he sits, he doesn’t crowd me, as if knowing I came out here needing some space. “I’m sorry Hiei. I’ve just been feeling a little off lately and wanted to clear my head.”

Concerned, Hiei moved closer and touched my forehead. “You’re not getting sick are you?”

Casually, I brushed his hand aside. “No, it’s nothing like that. It’s just a feeling, like maybe I don’t really belong here. I don’t want you to misunderstand what I’m going to say, because I know you love me Hiei, I just sometimes wonder if it’s really me you love, or the memory of who I used to be.”

I’m not surprised when a look of guilt flashes in his eyes before he looks out at the ocean. “Kurama, I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss the man you were. We have so many years of history and memories together. We’ve been through things I hope you never have to experience. Things that brought us closer together and made us love deeper than anyone can ever imagine.”

Though I knew he felt that way, hearing him say it hurts like it was me that took it away from him. Still looking out at the ocean, Hiei takes my hand in his as he continues. “My feelings for you may have started because of who you were, but that doesn’t mean I don’t love you for who you are. We have new history and new memories that are bringing us closer with every passing month. Kurama, I will always mourn the loss of the old you, but every day discovering the new you makes me love you even more.”

It felt like his words made the world right again. “Thank you Hiei, I needed to hear that. I don’t know what’s been wrong with me the past couple weeks. I’ve felt off since we got back from Makai. I think maybe I’m realizing that my memory probably isn’t coming back. It’s hard to accept. It feels like I’m five months old.”

Hiei squeezed my hand with a smile. “Oh believe me, you are way older than that.”

Another thing I suddenly know but don’t remember, Youko’s don’t like to be called old. Teasingly, I shove him. “Brat!”

A moment later Hiei gave me a serious look. “Kurama, thank you for trusting me with how you’re feeling. I know this has been hard on both of us, but as long as we’re honest with each other, we’ll work it out.”

Giving him a big smile, I move closer to put my arms around him. “I love you Hiei.”

As his lips descend on mine, Hiei whispers. “I love you too Kurama.”