living with the past

Chapter 1

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It was the night before the final fight of the dark tournament and Koenma was pacing in his private sweat being highly nervous about the next days event.

‘why did I agree to fight? Why do I always let Yusuke get to me?’

“It’s that face! And he knows it, he has to! Every time he wants something from me he pulls out that pout!” Koenma yelled to himself since he knew he was alone or at least he thought he was until he heard a light knocking on the door and he jumped.

‘why am I jumpy I know who it is I summed her so I could discuss my “fighting”’

“come in.” Koenma replied only after realizing the door was locked so he turned around only to find his visitor standing right in front of him, arms folded.

‘God! I hate it when she does that!’

The visitor was a woman as he knew it would be, she was only slightly shorter then himself but she held herself with more respect and pride then he ever thought possible the only exception being the shortest member of team Urameshi. The woman was easy on the eyes with long unnatural black hair for he knew it was naturally red, strong yet kind brown eyes the turned red from time to time, a perfect hour glass figure which was always accented with tight fitting clothes, and pale white skin that on anyone else would look sickly. She was the kind of woman that every other woman wanted to be and she knew it, using it to her advantage every chance she got although it never worked on him and she knew the reason behind it.

She knew why he never choose a woman to marry against his fathers wishes and she knew who his heart belonged to against his wishes, but to his surprise she never made fun of him or threatened to tell his father. In fact she seemed to be happy for him for once and this surprised him what with all the pain she had and still was going though all because of love.

“you called….” her voice always showing her age which was well beyond his own

“yes I need to discuss my fighting tomorrow in the tournament… and would it kill you to address me as ’sir’.” Koenma replied as he took a seat in the only chair.

“you plan to fight tomorrow? And here I thought the reason you summoned me was to make sure you didn’t have to fight.”

“and that is exactly what I would like to discuss with you…. Including your secret participation.”

“we’ve been over this one hundred times Koenma I know what to do…. Watch the fight and should anything go wrong forget the rules and step in. right?”

“right and please remember none of the Urameshi team can know who you are and that you work for me.”

“yes I know I am a last resort should they fail in any mission they are assigned.”

“thank you Angle you have been the pain killer to my raging head ache since this whole thing started.”

“so how’s things with Yusuke?” statements like this always threw me off balance

‘why would she open such a painful topic so easily..’

“fine like always but thanks for asking.”

“must be killing you to watch him fight, never knowing if he’s going to live or not, knowing you cant do anything to save him if he dies this time. I almost feel bad for you.” saying that she turned on her heel and left.

‘is that how she had always felt before he died. I cant imagine feeling that every day.’

Then another knock this time louder more demanding, this was a knock he recognized, that always and would always bring a smile to his face.

“come in.” he remained seated in the chair knowing that this would either confuse or excite Yusuke. Then the door opened and the tall dark haired detective walked in closing and locking the door behind him like always. He watched as Yusuke slowly made his way over to him and then kneeled on the floor in front of the chair making it so that his legs were on either side of Yusuke’s muscular body.

“why the late night visit Yusuke? You should be sleeping.” Koenma said as he caressed Yusuke’s face.

“I need a reason now to visit my lover? Well if that’s the case I’m here because I couldn’t sleep.” Yusuke replied placing his hands on Koenma’s legs and leaning into his lap.

“you cant sleep you say… well how would you like me to help?” Koenma leaned forward and lightly kissed Yusuke on the lips.

“actually koi in all honesty I came here tonight to talk to you… about Keiko I’m starting to feel bad about using her. I mean I know she offered but she deserves a real boyfriend who will treat her right and love her.” Yusuke then placed his head on Koenma’s lap and Koenma knew this was Yusuke’s subtle way of saying he really had no intentions to do anything more then talking. He always loved the way that Yusuke could be so demanding at times and then at others so shy and asking, he always seemed to get this way when it concerned Keiko.

Over the months that Yusuke had worked for him Koenma had begun to have feelings for the rash detective, so much so that he had approached Yusuke and told him how he felt. To his pleasure and surprise Yusuke returned his feelings, he had told Keiko about the talk the two of them had shared and the feelings he himself felt for the prince. Keiko had excepted their relationship in fact she encouraged it, and being the wonderfully kind young woman that she was told Yusuke that she would continue to be his girlfriend in public so that he wouldn’t loss he reputation or his friends.

The girl really was too nice to give up her own love life for her friends sake and Koenma had promised himself to properly thank the girl one of these days.

“have you talked to her about this? For all you know she feels the same way.”

“I tried earlier but she wouldn’t hear it. Kept on saying how she didn’t want a boyfriend right now and saying I was hers kept the other boys away.”

“and you don’t think that’s true… I mean Keiko’s a smart girl, who’s never hid her feelings from you before right?” now Yusuke was sitting on Koenma’s lap resting his head on the brown haired princes chest

“well yeah but…”but Yusuke was interrupted when a pair of soft lips kissed his and for a moment they just sat there enjoying them selves.

“no more of this worrying tonight ok? You need to relax.. Come on.” Koenma moved Yusuke off his lap and rose from the chair, slowly walking over to the over sized bed and sitting down, patting his hand on the mattes inviting Yusuke to come sit with him. Yusuke walked over and sat next to him once again placing his head on the teen princes body, only to be pulled down onto the mattes.

“Koenma what are you doing?”

“I cant lie down with you now…. You did say you couldn’t sleep.”

“are you implying that I should spend the night here with you then?”

“ no… although I wish you would but I know you wont and I wont make you.” Koenma smiled at his lover affectionately hoping that just this once Yusuke would stay but knowing deep down he would leave like he did all the other nights of the tournament.

“oh… really well in that case I’m staying. If its ok with you?”

“its always ok with me.” Koenma bent his head and kissed Yusuke on the lips. “good night Yusuke.”

Yusuke snuggled into his lovers embrace, slowly drifting off to dream land
‘oh how I’ve missed this’ thought Yusuke. He could feel Koenma tighten his grip and a blanket being pulled over both of them, Koenma always did take good care of him. So safe and sound with smiles on their faces both Koenma and Yusuke drifted off to sleep.

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im sorry but i just cant see yusuke with keiko not that i have any thing agianst her...
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