Loss Of Control

Loss of Control

By Serenestorm

PWP
fic (and maybe a one-shotter.style='font-family:"Courier New"'> I’m
not sure yet)

THIS FIC SUGGEST
RAPE. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!

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Time heals all
wounds they say.

Up until now I
firmly believed that. pan>pan>It was so human
and naïve of me, I know that now. class=SpellE>Hiei would laugh; call me a fool if he knew, knew of my
completely ningen beliefs.style='mso-spacerun:yes'>

Hmstyle='font-family:"Courier New"'>, Hiei will
probably kill me now; kill me when he finds out about this.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> He always was so protective of you.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> If I didn’t know better, I’d swear he loves
you, just like I love you or maybe I should say like I loved you.style='mso-spacerun:yes'>

I’m sorry.style='mso-spacerun:yes'>

I just couldn’t
control myself any longer.

Everyday, seeing you
and not being able to have you, listening to you talk about Keiko, listening to
you talk about that bitch like she was some kind of goddess or something.

I’m way stronger
than her, certainly more beautiful, with my long soft red hair and emerald
green eyes.

Much more deserving
of your affection, your worship, than she is!

You never noticed
me, Yusuke.

Never noticed me,
when I loved you more than anyone in this world, more than anyone will ever
love you!

I’m so class=GramE>sorry, I really didn’t mean to yell, to get so
emotional.

It’s just that I
love you so much.

You see, my demon
side took over.

Youkostyle='font-family:"Courier New"'> took control of me, making me take what I
wanted, what I’ve needed since I first laid eyes on you.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> I never denied myself of my wants when I was
him, when I was truly Youko Kurama.style='mso-spacerun:yes'>

Your hair under my
fingertips felt like an angel’s wing.

Your skin, hot,
flexing against my touch felt like the most expensive silk.

I could devour you,
even your screams, your screams of pain were music to my ears.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> Your pleas for me to stop only spurred me
onward. If for nothing else but to hear
my name whispered from your tortured red lips.

Even now, even now
that Youko has let me be, even now the lust remains.

I long for you to
open your dark brown eyes, give me your usual smirk.

Even if you could
never love me back, even if you never want to be in my presence again, even if
you want to kill me, even then I still wish for you back.

Tears fall from my
eyes and drop unto your face, still beautiful even in death.

Only the unusual
angle of your neck tells that you are not sleeping.

I sense my demise is
near though, dear Yusuke.

For class=SpellE>Hiei is close by and headed this way.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> I will
soon join you in your eternal sleep.

I want to join you;
I can’t live in this world without you, knowing what I’ve done.

The sound of fabric
shifting is all I hear as I turn to meet my judge, my jury.style='mso-spacerun:yes'>

And I find in those
blood red eyes, no remorse.

Hieistyle='font-family:"Courier New"'> knows what I’ve done.

He knows I killed
you.

The only class=GramE>thing I see in those eyes are death.

So be it, my Yusuke,
I will be with you soon.

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I know I’m going to get
a lot of flames for this, so before you get you torches ready let me
explain. I know Kurama
would never kill Yusuke, or he would never hurt Yusuke.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> I know Yusuke is stronger than class=SpellE>Kurama. So please,
if you do criticize me, critique the story not the facts I’ve ignored.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> That said I hope you review.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> I know this story is confusing, it was meant
to be that way. If you have any
questions that you want answered leave it in your review.